I dont know what I suppose to say..
I dont know what I suppose to do..

I came to their house with my heart full of elation.
I can't conceal my feeling that I missed them..
The happiness atmosphere was substitude by resentment.
When he began opening his mouth,
I could feel that the words which would come out from him will be as sharp as a knife..
It's true, I got reprimanded that day..
I just gave him a smile, to fake my feeling.
But,
My heart filled by resentment.

Why always me?
Why they never thought that that's not my fault?
Is it because I am the oldest?
A big question mark always filled my mind.
I know he did this to me because he didnt know the true story..
I tried to hide this from him.
Until the time has come.

Until the emotion can't be controlled anymore,
And there the word "patient" vanish from our dictionary..

My day..

Seconds like a minute,
Minutes like an hour,
Hours like a day...
That's what I feel today..

The emptiness, boredom enveloped me..
Do nothing at school.
No lesson, no laptop, just sitting and listening to the music from my ipod.
No laughing sound, no chattering sound for today..
Some parts of my heart seemed to be missing..

When I saw them,
A sharp knife was piercing into my heart and slice it into pieces..
I felt like the tears can't no longer to hold..
But, I told my self to be strong..
No tears came out for today..

But,
If the tears can't no longer to be hold anymore..
And at that time I can't stop it..
Let the rain come down and wash it away...